Rediscovered.

Just rediscovered a set of poems that I had written a while ago, thought would share them. Here goes :)


Part-I: The Battle Within

There’s a pain inside my heart

Unknown, unrelenting, unforgiving

Its there somewhere inside, embedded very deep,

But it persistently stings, its never asleep

Like a spear, its edge is razor sharp

It leaves me fragile, pierces my heart

I keep hoping that someday it’ll pass, but

It stays on, a dull ache, pounding on walls of glass

It’s a devil, and yet you’d think an angel you had found

Soothing at first, and then inflicting grievous wounds

It leaves behind scars of its own

Deeper than those that I have ever known

Like the lull before a storm, it suddenly disappears,

Only to come back, strike from the rear

It bares its ugly head and says

“Get ready now, your turn to be slayed!”

And then it comes down with full force,

Shattering me completely, without remorse

And even as I lie, broken, on the ground

I hear its wicked laughter all around

We keep lying there, my heart and I,

Not a sound, not even a sigh

The silence grows on us day after day

Even as the last beats of my heart, slowly ebb away

But I won’t give up, my will is strong

Nothing that comes my way, shall cow me down

And so with great difficulty and effort,

I get myself up, find some support

But the monster has not yet had its fill

Its eyes still burn with the urge to kill

It watches my progress with a mocking smile

The hunger evident on its face, full of guile

And as I attempt to pick up the shards

Put them together and rebuild my heart

It punishes me for trying to escape

Alter my destiny, and change my fate

“You fool! Think you can beat me?

Remake your soul and run away free?

No! Never shall I let this happen!

The more you try, the more damage to you shall be done!

You are my slave, and I, your master!

If you try to run, I will only run faster

You are now mine and so is your heart,

And I shall not rest till I have torn it apart!”

But I keep running, trying to find an escape

Looking for a place to keep my heart safe

I’m sick of this tussle, I want to be free

I want my soul back, cheerful and happy

But no, I am too small in the scheme of things

How could I even dream of escaping?

And so the pain keeps coursing through my veins

The more hurt I am, the more strength it gains

But my heart is adamant; it wants to be free of this cage,

And this battle within, continues to rage.